Regina Spektor - One More Time With Feeling (Official)

your stitches are all out
but your scars are healing wrong
the helium balloon inside your room has come undone
and it's pushing up at the ceiling
and the flickering lights it cannot get beyond

everyone takes turns
now it's yours to play the part
and they're sitting all around you
holding copies of your chart
and the misery inside their eyes is
synchronized and reflecting it to yours

hold on
one more time with feeling
try it again, breathing's just a rhythm
say it in your mind until you know that the words are right
this is why we fight

you thought by now you'd be
so much better than you are
you thought by now they'd see
that you have come so far

and the pride inside their eyes
is synchronized into a love you'll never know
so much more than you can show

hold on
one more time with feeling
try it again, breathing's just a rhythm
say it in your mind, until you know that the

words are right

this is why we fight
this is why we fight

do you wake up every morning and tell yourself today you will be better?

one question tore down a wall I spent 20 years building up.
one question. one person. 14 words and life changes. and then it moves on. all in the blink of an eye.

Things We Forget: #498

Things We Forget: #498: "bedok, singapore"

Cruel Intentions...

Do I really need to say anything here?

Stand Still Look Pretty- Audrey Horne [Twin Peaks]

"Laura died two days ago. I lost you years ago"

We don't all become Emily Dickinson

Loneliness is not the same as being alone. Many people have times when they are alone through circumstances or choice. Being alone can be experienced as positive, pleasurable, and emotionally refreshing if it is under the individual's control. Solitude is the state of being alone and secluded from other people, and often implies having made a conscious choice to be alone. Loneliness is unwanted solitude. Loneliness does not require being alone and is experienced even in crowded places. It can be described as the absence of identification, understanding or compassion. Loneliness can be described as a feeling of isolation from other individuals, regardless of whether one is physically isolated from others or not. It may also be described as a yearning for love or companionship, which is unfulfilled, but cannot seemingly be achieved, or may stem from the lack of love in one's life, and hence may lead to emotions such as rejection, despair and low self-esteem. Feelings of loneliness may be similar to feelings of the death or loss of a loved one.
In their growth as individuals, humans start a separation process at birth, which continues with growing independence towards adulthood. As such, feeling alone can be a healthy emotion and, indeed, choosing to be alone for a period of solitude can be enriching[citation needed]. To experience loneliness, however, can be to feel overwhelmed by an unbearable feeling of separateness at a profound level. This can manifest in feelings of abandonment, rejection, depression, insecurity, anxiety, hopelessness, unworthiness, meaninglessness, and resentment. If these feelings are prolonged they may become debilitating and prevent the affected individual from developing healthy relationships and lifestyles. If the individual is convinced he or she is unlovable, this will increase the experience of suffering and the likelihood of avoiding social contact. Low self-esteem will often trigger the social disconnection which can lead to loneliness.
In some people, temporary or prolonged loneliness can lead to notable artistic and creative expression, for example, as was the case with poet Emily Dickinson, and numerous musicians. This is not to imply that loneliness itself ensures this creativity; rather, it may have an influence on the subject matter of the artist.

Source: Wikipedia (so who knows, really)

also see: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pit_of_despair

It's A Wonderful Life

If you have the means and a moment

My friend Rachel is doing the out of the darkness walk and does a lot of volunteer work with the American Foundation for Suicide prevention. I know we all have our charities that we support, and this is one of mine...so if anyone is interested here is the link where you can donate: http://afsp.donordrive.com/participant/rpriest

Also, more info about the walk here: http://www.outofthedarkness.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=home.viewPage&page_id=A8B82380-C274-33DA-28241B85F84AEC25

and the AFSP here: http://www.afsp.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=home.viewPage&page_id=74292F56-B922-7B59-198781125A55D4E4

IWANTTHIS

Lily Allen - 22

Rilo Kiley - A Better Son/Daughter..it breaks my brain

but its a beautiful break. and sometimes a song can make you feel less alone than any other person ever could.

Size 12 And Up Is Plus-Size At Forever 21

Size 12 And Up Is Plus-Size At Forever 21

Romeo and Juliet - The Killers

Hipster Puppies

I found this new site today.
I love it.
It will revolutionize my time-wasting.
It is....


HIPSTER
PUPPIES

http://hipsterpuppies.tumblr.com/page/4

I love it. Ordinarily I don't like it when people dress up their pets....or when they mock their pets...but somehow this site is just fucking brilliant.
Well, it gave me a chuckle anyway.
Enjoy!

The XYZ Affair - All My Friends...I'm in this

Friday Funny

Feel Better BB!!

so Dlisted tells me that Jennifer Saunders [AKA Eddie from AbFab] is recovering from breast cancer. I wish her all the best, she was a huge influence on my formative years.
Get better darling!! enjoy the clip everyone <3

Lily Allen - LDN -- for VanillaSkies

Five Heart Thursday Video

wait for it....wait for it....

this little slice of awesomeness is from Betty White's calendar (I KNOW! right?!!) coming out in September. The proceeds will be going to support the Morris Animal Foundation. More info here: http://www.morrisanimalfoundation.org/

tomorrow we dine...IN HELL!!

Hellions of Troy recruitment night at the end of this month! I'm excited, its been a long time since I've been on skates and even longer since I've been to a kick-ass derby game!!
For more info:

http://www.hellionsoftroyrollerderby.com/

Get it Dakota!!

Dakota Fanning on this month's cover of marie claire....looking AWESOME!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

hahahahhaha

so the fail whales over at modcloth re-named the shirt "C U L8R Tee" and included a whole song and dance about how in China they end IMs with the phrase "88" which means "bye bye". They also mention in the new write-up that the shirt is made by the "fabulous Korean designer POL" and that the number 88 is a symbol of fortune and good luck in Chinese numerology.

Yeah, and in America its code for Heil Hitler and other white supremacists slang terms.

It seems to me they're just trying to cover their asses after a massive fuck up by one of their buyers... MAYBE I'm being too harsh though....and this makes me think- in today's global society how hyper vigalent can we be? Its great that we're exposed to so many cultures and fashions but how exhausting is it to stay on top of EVERY meaning for EVERY freaking icon/symbol/logo. It gave me a chuckle this morning but I wouldn't be surprised if this kind of shit happens all the time...thoughts?

WHAT THE FUCK?!

so- modcloth.com is one of my fav clothing websites....but I'm not so sure I can get behind this most recent addition.

I'm hoping that their fashion editors aren't familiar w/ the world of white supremacy, but the name of this shirt, "Don't H8, Appreci8 Tee" makes me think otherwise.

For those of you who aren't immediately horrified, I recommend you google this shit.

mmmmm....yes bitches. yessssss

I know when I'm done with my cowboy hip hop I rush off to put on some bedazzled velvet loungewear and cruise with the cougars.....ladies? just drop it!

iPhone4 vs HTC Evo